Having faith (in God, life, yourself)
Two faiths
There is faith that assumes
We already know what needs to be known
It can take you far on your journey
Sometimes burning bridges
As light can’t enter where learning is needed
But faith of the other kind
Innocent and pure
Draws you closer to Source
To Life
To Yourself
You pay attention to their slightest gestures
Knowing they see what you are yearning to see
Knowing they are what you are yearning to be
You leave everything in their hands
Persisting, learning, adapting, performing
Inviting in change only they can provide
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-timo kiviö
The more I worked on this topic, the more I felt it’s very difficult, if not impossible, to establish and act out a true belief in yourself, your life, and God without surrender and devotion. My experience was that believing guided me to those things that needed attention. Noticing this phenomena forced me to realise how my own faith had been lacking in strength and also misplaced. I noticed that there were ways in which I didn’t believe in myself and that it had affected my life in many ways. But I also noticed that I shouldn’t believe in me, but Me – the real Self – because that’s where the real change stems from.
Also, focusing on Myself made it clear that life wants to give you its best all the time and that it contains everything we need – I just had to align with it again and again so that whatever is needed in the moment can manifest. This required letting go of egocentric desires, thoughts, and activities, but it resulted in me living each moment differently: my priorities and agendas became anew as did my degree of excitement, curiosity, and intensity towards finding deeper truths. Also, making compromises became impossible – I just couldn’t and wouldn’t give up – I just wanted to find exactly what life wanted to give me. It was quite surprising to notice how even accomplishing that (i.e. finding what life wanted to give me) was not the point. The point was the better alignment and self-knowledge, and the process of accomplishment was the tool for that. Pretty awesome!